31 WEEKS

Okay, I am officially in that hugely uncomfortable third trimester stage. It's getting harder to sleep at night and keep up with Morgan during the day. Yesterday, we went for a walk along our normal route, and I thought I wasn't going to make it back home. Sheesh! But overall, I can't complain, because this pregnancy has been very "easy" and "normal" compared to Morgan, and it really has actually flown by. I am now seeing the doctor every two weeks, and whenever Jared and I can agree on when and where to have the repeat C-section done, we can call and schedule it. He doesn't want a June baby for some reason, but since my due date is July 4, any scheduled time in July before that would land on the holiday weekend, which I'm not too thrilled about. He wants to do it at the same hospital as last time, I want to do it at the hospital that has all private rooms. He wants the same doctor to do the C-section as last time, I really don't care which of the three doctors does it. See why we haven't scheduled anything yet? :)

Since this is already May, and we could very possibly have a baby by the end of June, it is kinda scary to say we could have our baby next month. Eeek! Suddenly I don't know if I am ready to be a mom of two yet! I'm just now feeling like I really get the hang of being a mom to ONE. Yeah, I'm getting nervous. I will be the first to admit that I am one who likes (NEEDS) routine, structure, and predictability. I feel like we finally have that established with a two year old. Soon, that will all change. I will need God to help me adjust in this area and be more willing to "go with the flow." Plus, is there enough love in my heart for TWO girls? It is hard to fathom loving another child as much as I do Morgan. But I know that once I hold our second daughter in my arms, that this fear will be unfounded. It's just hard to fathom right now. Oh, and can you tell I'm in that stage where I am a tad bit.....okay, a lot more.....emotional than I even am normally and that my hormones are taking over? Yeah, Jared isn't too fond of this stage.... :)

Anyway, 8 more weeks or so to go. Wow. I can hardly believe it.......